Today the OnePlus 5 was for sale to the world. I purchased the OnePlus 3 in July 2016 then the 3T was released in November 2016 with a 128gb model & now the OnePlus 5. Officially June 26th 11:00pm.
Friday June 15th you finally sat with me. I had told you the night before that if you had extra time to burn would you sit with me. I was almost in tears because time was running out but you had a few more minutes so I was there waiting and sit with me. We talked about family, your mom other things, how to lower my TV bill of all things. When we talked about your mom I put my hand on your hand just to show compassion. I enjoyed having time with you very much I even thanked you for it.
I'm okay with yesterday's disappointment it wasn't her fault. She is a sweetheart and I know I will get my time. Talked to her tonight via Facebook messenger, talked about work a bit then life. Currently my grandma is in the rest home with dementia, she thinks her mother might have the same thing. Sometimes I need to stop caring about the stupid pity crap I put on myself and think about others. She's the sweetest person I know.
4/28/17. Got to sit down with today to talk a little bit, so beautiful that she is. Talked about her cats. Asked her how she was doing. She was eat cake & a corn dog. She had a drink with a straw with her lip stick all over it. I could talk to her for hours and hours. Take care sweetheart.
I basically asked for her to sit with me tonight but it didn't happen. I know it's stupid but I'm holding back tears right now. So upset when/if there will be a next time I don't know. Why is it so hard. Why.
Every Friday Saturday & Sunday from 6pm to 7pm. I sit here on my lunch break with no one to talk to. Week after week after week. Nobody.
I'm just having another down day. Wish I had someone to spend lunch with, never do. Always see all these people together. I'm always the first person to say anything to anybody. I have some good days but they never last long. Depressed.
I always ask for permission to call but you always say no, however your always posting on Facebook. Really sad to say.
Today you weren't able to take a break during which time I was taking lunch. I got you your favorite snack & gave it to you as you were leaving. You were off the following day.
Some days like today I'm sad.
You came & sat with me just before my lunch was over, talking about things that were going on with you. You were recently robbed at your house & a strange guy was hanging around your house. All I thought was that I don't want nothing to happen to you. Your so beautiful sitting here in front of me. Picture click, didn't happen will it ever. I appreciated your time to sit with me, told you later in a Facebook message. You were cutting labels so I guess you needed a table big enough & to sit you are always on the run on your feet. ❤️ You came back later that evening I was able to check you out before you left. So lucky to be there at that place & time. Always beautiful after a days work. I can sit there & listen to you all day long. ❤️ you sweetheart.
Thursday March 16
Got to see two of my friends today one Kay & Cheryl B, both sweet ladies.
Never really having any real close relationship to this point in my 30yrs of age. There are friends I do care about but keep their distance & I don't blame them. I think about them every day. I don't want to say their names. I see people gathered around one person having a conversation but I'm hard at work thinking to myself if I talked to her it's always some damn ulterior motive.
I hate being alone but I guess I have no one else to blame but myself. I hate seeing people with there boyfriend and girlfriend. I guess when people see me it's a turn off. No returned calls or messages replied too.
Someday I will find her she is out there somewhere. She will be my whole world.
I kissed you on the cheek, Saturday January 14th, after giving you a early Valentines Day present. You are a beautiful woman sweet & caring. It is just nice to see you. You were the first one to kiss me a few years ago after I guess not seeing me for a while, but I will probably never know the reason. I know you are older than me but I love you.
So happy to see her today long black hair so beautiful. Just beautiful.💗 Hope she still has her flowers that I gave her Sunday hope they're growing. 🌼🌷
Saw two of my friends today Cherye & Kay. Always happy to see them.
Phone never rings, no one talks to me. No one to spend time with. Life sucks. Sucks Sucks Sucks.
The next installment of the Windows empire starts today Windows 10.